Just the other day my daughter was talking to me about her diary and how much she wants to pass it on to her daughter one day. I totally remember thinking the same thing when I was a little girl. However; little did I know then... that diary was full of stuff I would never want her to read. Then as I started going through my box of old memorabilia I found journal entries I had written to her while I was pregnant with my special gift from God; my little girl who I named Shianne. Literally the pages just before that were filled with despair, hurt, upset, such neediness- just full of no life; only sadness. I felt like I didn't even know who that girl was... I didn't even remember feeling THAT bad. Then as I turned the pages of my past to an entry written shortly after I found out I was pregnant, I was in awe and just felt the Lords embrace so real on my heart. These pages instead of despair, hurt, upset & neediness were replaced with my heart trusting in the only ONE who could truly give me life. A Father I could go to when I felt I was in despair. A Father I could go to who would truly heal my hurt. A Father who would hold my hand and teach me to be angry yet not sin when I felt upset. A Father who would always fill my neediness to be forgiven and loved when I lose my way. This Father of mine is no other than Jesus Christ! HE is the legacy I want to pass on to my children! I had an awesome opportunity to sit down with her and read her these entries of hope in a Savior who I began and continue to trust whole heartily with my life and hers. To share with her that He did and always will meet us RIGHT WHERE WE ARE. I had the chance to share with her just how much of a blessing she has been to me since the day I found out she was growing inside me. My little girl (now 10) and I were beaming tears of joy at these entries we shared together. When I say BEAMING I really mean it; it was a moment that I will treasure forever. Looking back I am so grateful that my Savior has brought us so far.
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old is gone, the new has come!" 2 Cor. 5:17
"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him and He will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun." Psalm 37: 4-6
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Shianne has gone on 2 field trips this past month with her class. She took so many good pictures I just had to share them on here with you. The 1st field trip was to the Vernal pools and the other was a Mission next to the Indian Museum.