Monday, March 29, 2010

A Legacy worth leaving behind...

Just the other day my daughter was talking to me about her diary and how much she wants to pass it on to her daughter one day. I totally remember thinking the same thing when I was a little girl. However; little did I know then... that diary was full of stuff I would never want her to read. Then as I started going through my box of old memorabilia I found journal entries I had written to her while I was pregnant with my special gift from God; my little girl who I named Shianne. Literally the pages just before that were filled with despair, hurt, upset, such neediness- just full of no life; only sadness. I felt like I didn't even know who that girl was... I didn't even remember feeling THAT bad. Then as I turned the pages of my past to an entry written shortly after I found out I was pregnant, I was in awe and just felt the Lords embrace so real on my heart. These pages instead of despair, hurt, upset & neediness were replaced with my heart trusting in the only ONE who could truly give me life. A Father I could go to when I felt I was in despair. A Father I could go to who would truly heal my hurt. A Father who would hold my hand and teach me to be angry yet not sin when I felt upset. A Father who would always fill my neediness to be forgiven and loved when I lose my way. This Father of mine is no other than Jesus Christ! HE is the legacy I want to pass on to my children! I had an awesome opportunity to sit down with her and read her these entries of hope in a Savior who I began and continue to trust whole heartily with my life and hers. To share with her that He did and always will meet us RIGHT WHERE WE ARE. I had the chance to share with her just how much of a blessing she has been to me since the day I found out she was growing inside me. My little girl (now 10) and I were beaming tears of joy at these entries we shared together. When I say BEAMING I really mean it; it was a moment that I will treasure forever. Looking back I am so grateful that my Savior has brought us so far.

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old is gone, the new has come!" 2 Cor. 5:17

"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him and He will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun." Psalm 37: 4-6

2 comments:

  1. theroddas1@verizon.netApril 1, 2010 at 6:03 PM

    Wow Heather! Powerful stuff! Amazing stuff! Isn't it awesome when you can see God's hand in things?! Beyond cool!!

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  2. It truly is!!! :) Sometimes when we think His hands aren't moving things...we take a step back and realize He was there all along. We are so blessed!!! Love you Kerry!

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