Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Day 10} The Fear of Not Measuring Up


 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7
"Love is patient, love is kind.  It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres". 
 Tonight I looked up the definition of envy;
it is best defined as a "resentful emotion" that occurs when a person lacks another's "(perceived)" superior quality
 achievement or possession and wishes that the other lacked it.
 Ouch! 

I believe a lot of  my fears as a Mother; come from watching others doing it better than I do.  
That quickly turns into a fear of not being able to measure up to June Cleaver.   
Yes I'm young'ish but I remember June Cleaver.
I remember her in her kitchen, apron on, cookies in a platter- and always a welcoming smile when her kids arrived from school.
Somehow early on in my childhood
I had it set in my mind that is what a Mother is.
Her home looked so peaceful 
and I could totally be her!

That was setting me up for failure for sure.
Because I grew up; and found out quickly there are trials in life,
and tons of them.
Easy will never be constant, neither will peaceful.
Things are bound to happen.

I have come to learn that God has blessed us with the family we have; 
He perfectly formed and planned each one of my children as a masterpiece of His creation.
He created them for Me.
He created them for me specifically; He knew just who I needed-
and He blessed me with three of His best works of art.


You see- Love does not envy; 
therefore;
I will stay perfectly content with the beauty that He has so lovingly surrounded me with.
There is no need to wish I attained anothers' achievments;
but enjoy the ones I already have!

That is what God wants for all of us, and He is the only place where Peace 
"is always" constant and waiting!

Thank you Jesus!

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2 comments:

  1. i adore this post! This is one of my favourite bible verses...my husbands Grandfather read it at our wedding and its the time i lost it in tears in the ceremony! but oh boy...envy turning to fear...never looked at it like that before. As a mummy of a child with extreme (24 Hour) special needs this is something i need to think on...thank you so much...i feel so lucky to have found your blog, i think you have written this just for me xxxxxx

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  2. You just gave me the chills. Thank you so much; I feel so blessed that you enjoyed this so much. I prayed over it that it would bless someone; even if it's just one- That prayer was for you. :) God is so good!

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