This past week I've been realizing that a lot of my fears come from my disorganization.
Does that make sense?
I'm thinking about it; and on the days I am quick to react to my children out of frustration, are the days I am afraid I wont get done what I know needs to get done-all because of my disorganization. If I'm honest; most the time it's not them at all.
If the house is falling apart; and not functioning- then I don't function to well- then my family suffers the wrath of irrational, short fused Mama.
God showed me this last week.
Last week I dropped my children off at school; helped in my sons classroom for an hour- came home ready to clean my entire house before they got home- I had really good intentions- then I got distracted. Seriously distracted.
I sat down at my computer, got on you tube; and listened to all kinds of songs... then I found a bunch of instrumentals of all my favorite songs. Before I knew it, it was 2:00!!!! I had been singing for 4 HOURS!!!! WHAT IN THE WORLD WAS I THINKING? I got NOTHING done and now I was gonna be forever behind on housework.
Ohhhh I felt soooo guilty.
So I went to pick up my children from school- started helping them with their homework in a very messy house, my husband walked in the door; and my heart dropped- I felt horrible that he had to come home to a house in this condition- on account of a very selfish day of mine.
Now let me explain my husband to you; he's never been the type to be upset about a messy home on a super busy day- he is very understanding, but this day was different. I couldn't blame him one bit!
He has never said anything like this before, but this night he said it "Your home all day, and I have to come home to a house like this?" Ouch! He was so right. I couldn't say one word. I sorta walked around like a Puppy Dog who just got in trouble for having an accident in the house. Then I thought; how embarrassing I can't actually tell him what I did all day- that's even worse!!!
Now I can quietly laugh at the lesson I learned, because it was valuable! A lot of times the fear I feel is brought on by none other than myself. To fix it I must get organized and plan ahead.
Planning Ahead Ideas:
- Picking out and Ironing Clothes the night before
- If I plan to work out; finish before the kids get up
- Always be ready on school days before the kids
- Come home and Follow a Good Organized cleaning checklist- I have a great app on my phone that works great for this; it is called Home Routine; it zones your house into sections so you can get deep cleaning and regular cleaning done on a more regular basis
- If you must sing- sing while you work :)
- If you must sing to instrumentals on You Tube- sing after your work is over; because being a Stay at Home Mom is definitely a job- and I almost got fired!
31 Days of Fear Free Mothering:
Day 1 - When Fear Sets In
Day 2- It's Not Personal
Day 3- The Fear of Your Past
Day 4- Planning Ahead
Day 5- Day 6- Day 7- Day 8- Day 9- Day 10- Day 11- Day 12- Day 13- Day 14- Day 15- Day 16- Day 17- Day 18- Day 19- Day 20- Day 21- Day 22- Day 23- Day 24- Day 24- Day 25- Day 26- Day 27- Day 28- Day 29- Day 30- Day 31-